To the Person Who Was Important Once In My Life;
I don't understand how we got to this point or even why? All I know is that for the years I have known you, you held meaning, a strong meaningful part of me. We shared so much together and we laughed and cried. We loved the same things and loved each other. But after that first time, those things became wedged in our life, I just couldn't trust anymore. I looked for any little thing to make me believe that you were doing things that you knew I did not like. You even sneaked behind my back to do them. Yes, you did do them. I had caught you many of times and forgiven you each time. But I knew I should have not forgiven you, but I did out of love. Love makes us do silly and stupid things. It makes our eyes blind, our ears deaf and our lips silent. But love is deceptive and will take control of you. You have to learn to see the signs and not fall to them. And that's finally what I did. I saw you were doing things you knew I did not like or want you to do. You cared for yourself and not for me. You disregarded everything I asked. I understand you only did it to fit in or to be with people of similar mindsets. You were burned before by them and you continued to go back. So am I the foolish one for letting go? I lived and learned. I made the choice and left. I know I left you behind but you did not look toward me when you needed to. You only looked at what was appealing. And because of that, I hurt. I was sad and angry. So I did what I felt I had to do. I left. I stopped communicating with you. I gave in to what you wanted. You wanted to be with them, so I walked away.
There is one thing I want you to know and I'm not even sure if you will ever read this. I want you to know I loved you and still do but I can't trust you anymore. I hope you get what you want in life and continue on. Never looking down or away but straight forward. To the future and beyond. And perhaps one day, I will be in sight. You will see me and remember.
I don't understand how we got to this point or even why? All I know is that for the years I have known you, you held meaning, a strong meaningful part of me. We shared so much together and we laughed and cried. We loved the same things and loved each other. But after that first time, those things became wedged in our life, I just couldn't trust anymore. I looked for any little thing to make me believe that you were doing things that you knew I did not like. You even sneaked behind my back to do them. Yes, you did do them. I had caught you many of times and forgiven you each time. But I knew I should have not forgiven you, but I did out of love. Love makes us do silly and stupid things. It makes our eyes blind, our ears deaf and our lips silent. But love is deceptive and will take control of you. You have to learn to see the signs and not fall to them. And that's finally what I did. I saw you were doing things you knew I did not like or want you to do. You cared for yourself and not for me. You disregarded everything I asked. I understand you only did it to fit in or to be with people of similar mindsets. You were burned before by them and you continued to go back. So am I the foolish one for letting go? I lived and learned. I made the choice and left. I know I left you behind but you did not look toward me when you needed to. You only looked at what was appealing. And because of that, I hurt. I was sad and angry. So I did what I felt I had to do. I left. I stopped communicating with you. I gave in to what you wanted. You wanted to be with them, so I walked away.
There is one thing I want you to know and I'm not even sure if you will ever read this. I want you to know I loved you and still do but I can't trust you anymore. I hope you get what you want in life and continue on. Never looking down or away but straight forward. To the future and beyond. And perhaps one day, I will be in sight. You will see me and remember.